Hey Shorty It's Your Birthday

Yes it is.

I've been somewhat busy. Also, not very motivated to write. But I think I should say something since I turned twenty-two today. Wow. Twenty two years of life. A beautiful, wonderful, dramatic and lonely life.

First of all, twenty-two isn't a special number. It doesn’t really have any special significance attached to it. It's not like eighteen when you’re young, high-spirited and ready to take the world by its horns. And it's not like twenty-one when everyone in this country is all excited about your ability to drink legally. But in many ways twenty-two is nice just because nobody really cares. Except your family that is. They always care, shown by the plethora of telephone phone calls I got this morning. And it’s nice to realize that they love you that much. It really is, especially when most of your relationships with your so-called friends are unsatisfying and shallow.

This year will be different for me. I can sense it. And to some extent, I can also feel it. I've been wanting to change some things about myself for a while. And that feeling that makes you feel unsatisfied with yourself is getting stronger and deeper everyday. Especially when I go to bed every night. I don’t know why I feel that I’m not taking advantage of the life that I have. Or why the pursuit of pleasure that I see around me is not the way I want to live the rest of my life. And what about happiness? We’ll the other day I heard that a person who only looks for his own happiness in life is selfish. And I think that is somewhat true. But I also think that there are ways of seeking happiness outside of the realm of personal pleasure. For example, helping other people or doing good work at my job always makes me happy. I don’t know. Just some things that are on my mind.

Most of the people at work wished my Happy Birthday. Apparently, Sarah M told everyone, which was nice gesture. Later I had lunch (soup, sandwich and a cookie that she bought for me) with her and we sat together with some other people. I think I am the youngest person in my office. Or at least everyone now thinks so.

There are several things that are on my "to do" list. But I'm not going to spell them out. I don't want to jinx anything. However, the biggest challenge I feel that I'll have to deal with are my relationships. I am still looking for people who I enjoy being with and who are healthy for my well-being. And, in the end, I have to stop letting my solitude get the best of me so as to want to be in the company of certain immoral individuals.

And now some representations:

Representing the beauty of a selfless soul
Representing the innocence of a pure mind
Representing having love and being loved
And finally, representing the wisdom that comes with age